Did I Ever Tell Y'all About The Time I Tried Viagra...?

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With this post I am inaugurating two new categories: "Sex" and "Memory Lane"
Posts in the "Sex" category will be obviously be more sexual in nature and may be rendered explicit or even obscene to some. Posts in the "Memory Lane" category are past experiences of mine that I decide to share.
Enjoy.
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As tops, in sexual situations we are expected to perform. If the sex is not good for some reason it's somehow blamed on us "he wasn't hard enough", "that nigga's dick wasn't big enough", "his stroke was wack!", "he nutted too quick", etc., etc., etc. For me I don't think of these situations as so much a lack of prowess but a bad case of nerves more than anything. There's a lot of pressure put on us especially when we really like the person and it's our first time being intimate.

I remember I had an ex who was really kewl and I really liked him. We enjoyed all the time we spent together and we'd had good sex in the past but when it came time to do it one night for some reason I just couldn't get it up. He would suck it, he would play with it, but still it would remain limp as a drag queen's wrist. He'd ask me was it him, did he do something wrong. I'd say no. Then he'd get visibly aggravated (that DOES NOT help, by the way). We broke up soon after that for unrelated reasons.

I didn't understand then why my dick went on sabbatical for a while there. Now that I think about it, maybe it was him. I think my problem may have started as a one time thing but the way he reacted to it put me in such an insecure place and then that made any subsequent sexual endeavors with him less about lovemaking and more about proving that I wasn't impotent at 21 years old! Good sex for me is all about being relaxed and enjoying the moment but I couldn't do that with him anymore.

That blow to my sexual self esteem prompted me to take some drastic measures. I went out and got me some Viagra. Most people think of Viagra as something for old men but I had heard of men of all ages taking it recreationally as a sex booster of sorts. Did I go to the doctor you ask, nope. I ordered it online right from the comfort of my own home. A real doctor probably would have laughed me out of his office. As unbelievable as it sounds you can get Viagra online without a prescription. I don't know how legal it is but it's possible. I found a website, ordered 4 Viagra pills and had it shipped overnight. That cost me a little over $100 (Viagra sho' ain't cheap!).

Once the pills came I was anxious to give them a try so I scheduled a "date" with this dude. I fucked, and fucked, and fucked, and fucked, and fucked, and fucked this dude for hours. What's so cool about Viagra is that it doesn't just make your dick hard as soon as you take it. It only works when you're stimulated. It's like magic! The only side effect I experienced was a really bad headache.

In retrospect I realize that I didn't need the Viagra. What I needed was the validation I got from fucking the other dude. Does Viagra work? Yes. Would I take it again? Unless it was prescribed by a doctor, no. I got from the internet what I thought was and what looked like Viagra. It didn't necessarily have to be. In retrospect I realize that I put myself in grave danger and that probably wasn't my smartest idea. The things we do to get our nutt off...

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Playing In The Background...
"You Are My Everything"
by Janelle Monae
from the album "Metropolis"
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PS: Me and that ex hooked up a year later and he sucked my dick. I didn't have the problem that night.