Dear Freind in my head,

I can't completely say that I understand what you are going thru, but I can say that there is a season and reason to it all.

Just as the universe has its ways of cleansing and renewing, we humans must do the same. Feel no guilt or shame in your growth.

A Friend in my head

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My hopes is that I am fortunate enough to have the new number, cause I have got to talk to you.

Don't you think you are being a little to extreem? Or maybe just running away from yourself? What is changing your number really going to do? You have announced it to the world on your blog. Just man up...If you dont want to take someone number, dont! if you dont want to give your number out..Dont! If you know someone is a fake friend then dont deal with them. Changing your number will not change you or what caused you to get to the place where canging your number seems like a good option..

Glad you are feeling better. Keep your head up and do what you need to do. At some point it all will make sense.

Can't believe I'm writing you TWICE in one day, because normally I'd just read and keep my comments to myself but figured what the hell. You aiight yo. Energy is a muthafucka, and what we do with our energy determines everything about us. I mentioned earlier about having an agenda when were going through stuff - that's the bottom line. When we have a clear agenda and dedicate our energy to that, there is quite simply no way we can fail. I also wanted to mention from the party on Friday Mike and the dude we came up there with met someone from Brooklyn who I think is quite frankly mad cool. He came back to Jersey with us and we all really had an extended ball for the remainder of the holiday weekend. So for what it's worth, despite you and your boys simply breaking even and you confirming, again, that individuals words aren't merely as authentic as their actions - in addition to meeting you - I met a soul that has removed my fear of coming to NY to party and that bond has already proven to be priceless. And for that, I thank you. Be eazy - just not too eazy. 1

I love Adam Irby...Even if my number was deleted...lol

But I am proud of your growth and this is only the beginning of the sign of all the great things that you've just made room for.

Now that you recognize the game...you can win and continue to win (but you already know that)

The crazy thing is, on the day of the party you texted me your reply from your actually phone number. I felt honored and I treasured it. I jus' was unsure about saving the number since I didn't feel like I knew you well enough, or more like it felt like you didn't know me well enough, for me to save it. It's honestly still in my phone, unsaved along with your messages. I was gonna ask you at the party if I should jus' delete it or save it to my phone, but it's for the best I didn't save it, since you don't know me that well and you're changing your number now. I was honored you did get personal and texted me direct from your phone.

I too understand having numbers that you barely call overloading your contact list in your phone. In my case I'll see some of the numbers I barely call or haven't called in months-to-years and still find some hope in keeping them to my phone and only deleting a few. Like you, it's a new day and for me it's a new phone, so the numbers saved to my phone are necessary ones and I'll be less neglectful of calling them.

Beyond that, I think it might be time to take down the No Shade flyer banner on the blog. That's unless you're going ahead with another party. Maybe you can have a farewell to party promoting after your short career in it. Maybe it might change your mind (kinda defeating the purpose of the farewell party), who knows.

Um, so yea, I do this every time I change phones. And you're right - sometimes I'm left wondering who the hell some people even are.