Believe it or not, there are people out there who don't like me. I know, it's crazy right? I've always felt like I'm a pretty likable guy. I've always felt as though if someone didn't like me it's their issue because I try to be the nicest person I can. I pretty much still hold on to that. Regardless of my theory though, there are five people in this city who I know don't like me. And I mean yeah, I have a whole slew of haters, but these five people actually know me, at least kinda sorta, at least they've had interactions with me. Haters and other people who don't know me and don't like me for no reason, they just simply don't matter.
Anyway, like I was saying, there are five people in this city who I know don't like me in varying degrees and for various reasons, but at the end of the day they just aren't feeling the kid. I'm not losing any major sleep over it, but I would be lying if I said that it didn't bother me just a little, especially because some of it is my fault.
So, the First Person who doesn't like me, well he has good reason. We kinda used to be friends, casually though, we even messed around once. Well, I flirted with his boyfriend, it was after they broke up, but still it was wrong. That was my bad. I apologized and everything. It wasn't as heartfelt as it should have been but it was an apology nevertheless. I've seen First Person since the incident and we spoke. I mean it has been a long while, but we're far from cool.
The Second Person who doesn't like me doesn't like me because he got into it with one of my good friends. After a while that all subsided and we would speak when we saw each other, but since then he's gotten really friendly with First Person and as of late isn't speaking to me again. This usually wouldn't bother me as I wouldn't even know that Second Person even existed except for the fact that back when things were good Second Person was at my house once visiting me along with my good friend, so we've met previously and on top of that Second Person works at a neighborhood business that I frequent. So I see him at least a few times a week, but we still don't speak.
The Third Person who doesn't like me is someone who I hooked up with two years ago who's mad at me because on that night I mentioned, when my good friend came to my house with Second Person I mentioned casually that Third Person and I messed around. I figured that it was no big deal and we that we're all adults here. In all actuality I was really talking to my good friend, but Second Person happened to overhear. Little did I know Second Person knew Third Person's boyfriend and told him and everyone else who'd listen about it. Yeah, Third Person had a boyfriend, he didn't mention that on the night he came by at three in the morning. All this talk got back to Third Person and he figured that I was out there trying to brag about having had him when it wasn't even like that. He started popping shit with me over the internet talking about how he wanted to fight me. I told him to bring his ass over, he knew the address, it was the same one he came to when he came looking for dick at 3am. He still never showed up. I saw him last week, the first time I'd seen him since this all went down, we didn't speak.
The Fourth Person who doesn't like me, doesn't like me but I'm really not sure why. We met online last year and I thought he was really attractive. He came over and we talked, nothing happened between us and he left. While Fourth Person was over we talked and discovered that we worked in the same industry and he was told me that he needed a job. I gave him the info for my job (which I never do) and told him to pursue it and not to mention that he knew me (because if they knew that he knew me they probably wouldn't hire hi ). That was the last time I heard from him, he stopped calling me. One day I'm at work, I look up and there he is, Fourth Person, he got the job. It wasn't my job though, it was a position lower than mine. Even with that I didn't give him too much attention though because hey, he stopped calling me. I'm not gonna jock him like that, it's not that serious. A week later I got an email saying that he got fired. I kinda wanted to know what happened. My curiosity getting the better of me, I'd hit him up online intermittently, saying hey, even going as far enough to assure him that I was not trying to pick him up. Still no response. One day I was chilling at my friend's house, he came by he saw me there, we spoke and then he left suddenly. I won't be conceited enough to say that I was the reason why he left but I can't help but wonder. I saw him last week as well and we didn't speak. He can't possibly think I had something to do with him being fired, can he?
The Fifth Person who doesn't like me, doesn't like me in a way a little different from the first four. Fifth Person doesn't like me, like me, like romantically. The first time I saw Fifth Person I saw him at his job, I figured that he got down (was gay) and my feelings were confirmed after seeing him around at parties and in the gay-borhoods of the city. For whatever reason I never walked up and talked to him before. I ain't gon' lie, I get nervous trying to approach guys I like, you wouldn't know though, but even with that, the opportunity never really presented itself. One day I saw him online so I sent him a message. I sent it and he never replied back. I checked the message and he opened it. Damn. On another occasion I sent him a message again. I even told him that I'd developed a little crush on him (yeah, I know, that shit was extra), again same result. He's fine, but he's just not feeling me. I know the cardinal online rule, I'm a proponent of it. You send a message, you wait a while, they're still online and you know they opened it, no reply back, they're not interested. The there's no point in being a stalker and making yourself look crazy. It's just that, as fucked up as it sounds, me saying this about myself but, I'm not used to this kinda thing, rejection from somebody I kinda got into like that. Guys I like don't usually reject me, at least not lately, within the past year or so. A part of me wondered, why is he not feeling me? I don't get it. Oh well, I shook the dust from my feet and moved on. His loss.
It's crazy but, as much I'd like to walk up to each one of these five people, stretch out my hand and proceed to talk and mend fences with them I wonder, how realistic is that? Peace talks happen between two parties, but the two parties have to be willing to talk and settle their differences and be cool. Like I said before, I don't lose much sleep over those who don't like me but if I had my way I'd like for us to all be okay. But considering that there are only five people in the world I can think of who are not okay with me, mostly for dumb ass reasons, I'm a really fortunate guy, believe it or not.
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Playing In The Background...
"Womanizer"
by Britney Spears
from the album "Circus"
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Anyway, like I was saying, there are five people in this city who I know don't like me in varying degrees and for various reasons, but at the end of the day they just aren't feeling the kid. I'm not losing any major sleep over it, but I would be lying if I said that it didn't bother me just a little, especially because some of it is my fault.
So, the First Person who doesn't like me, well he has good reason. We kinda used to be friends, casually though, we even messed around once. Well, I flirted with his boyfriend, it was after they broke up, but still it was wrong. That was my bad. I apologized and everything. It wasn't as heartfelt as it should have been but it was an apology nevertheless. I've seen First Person since the incident and we spoke. I mean it has been a long while, but we're far from cool.
The Second Person who doesn't like me doesn't like me because he got into it with one of my good friends. After a while that all subsided and we would speak when we saw each other, but since then he's gotten really friendly with First Person and as of late isn't speaking to me again. This usually wouldn't bother me as I wouldn't even know that Second Person even existed except for the fact that back when things were good Second Person was at my house once visiting me along with my good friend, so we've met previously and on top of that Second Person works at a neighborhood business that I frequent. So I see him at least a few times a week, but we still don't speak.
The Third Person who doesn't like me is someone who I hooked up with two years ago who's mad at me because on that night I mentioned, when my good friend came to my house with Second Person I mentioned casually that Third Person and I messed around. I figured that it was no big deal and we that we're all adults here. In all actuality I was really talking to my good friend, but Second Person happened to overhear. Little did I know Second Person knew Third Person's boyfriend and told him and everyone else who'd listen about it. Yeah, Third Person had a boyfriend, he didn't mention that on the night he came by at three in the morning. All this talk got back to Third Person and he figured that I was out there trying to brag about having had him when it wasn't even like that. He started popping shit with me over the internet talking about how he wanted to fight me. I told him to bring his ass over, he knew the address, it was the same one he came to when he came looking for dick at 3am. He still never showed up. I saw him last week, the first time I'd seen him since this all went down, we didn't speak.
The Fourth Person who doesn't like me, doesn't like me but I'm really not sure why. We met online last year and I thought he was really attractive. He came over and we talked, nothing happened between us and he left. While Fourth Person was over we talked and discovered that we worked in the same industry and he was told me that he needed a job. I gave him the info for my job (which I never do) and told him to pursue it and not to mention that he knew me (because if they knew that he knew me they probably wouldn't hire hi ). That was the last time I heard from him, he stopped calling me. One day I'm at work, I look up and there he is, Fourth Person, he got the job. It wasn't my job though, it was a position lower than mine. Even with that I didn't give him too much attention though because hey, he stopped calling me. I'm not gonna jock him like that, it's not that serious. A week later I got an email saying that he got fired. I kinda wanted to know what happened. My curiosity getting the better of me, I'd hit him up online intermittently, saying hey, even going as far enough to assure him that I was not trying to pick him up. Still no response. One day I was chilling at my friend's house, he came by he saw me there, we spoke and then he left suddenly. I won't be conceited enough to say that I was the reason why he left but I can't help but wonder. I saw him last week as well and we didn't speak. He can't possibly think I had something to do with him being fired, can he?
The Fifth Person who doesn't like me, doesn't like me in a way a little different from the first four. Fifth Person doesn't like me, like me, like romantically. The first time I saw Fifth Person I saw him at his job, I figured that he got down (was gay) and my feelings were confirmed after seeing him around at parties and in the gay-borhoods of the city. For whatever reason I never walked up and talked to him before. I ain't gon' lie, I get nervous trying to approach guys I like, you wouldn't know though, but even with that, the opportunity never really presented itself. One day I saw him online so I sent him a message. I sent it and he never replied back. I checked the message and he opened it. Damn. On another occasion I sent him a message again. I even told him that I'd developed a little crush on him (yeah, I know, that shit was extra), again same result. He's fine, but he's just not feeling me. I know the cardinal online rule, I'm a proponent of it. You send a message, you wait a while, they're still online and you know they opened it, no reply back, they're not interested. The there's no point in being a stalker and making yourself look crazy. It's just that, as fucked up as it sounds, me saying this about myself but, I'm not used to this kinda thing, rejection from somebody I kinda got into like that. Guys I like don't usually reject me, at least not lately, within the past year or so. A part of me wondered, why is he not feeling me? I don't get it. Oh well, I shook the dust from my feet and moved on. His loss.
It's crazy but, as much I'd like to walk up to each one of these five people, stretch out my hand and proceed to talk and mend fences with them I wonder, how realistic is that? Peace talks happen between two parties, but the two parties have to be willing to talk and settle their differences and be cool. Like I said before, I don't lose much sleep over those who don't like me but if I had my way I'd like for us to all be okay. But considering that there are only five people in the world I can think of who are not okay with me, mostly for dumb ass reasons, I'm a really fortunate guy, believe it or not.
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Playing In The Background...
"Womanizer"
by Britney Spears
from the album "Circus"
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Who has the time or energy not to like someone? Weird.