Before I start I just wanna wish everybody a Happy 4th. I went out to the MenAreFromMars party last night and someone walked up to me and said that they read the blog and that's always nice to hear. If you ever see me out anywhere don't be afraid to say "Hi." I don't bite unless provoked.
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So like I was saying I went out last night and you know what that means... ex-date central. Everybody you've ever hooked up with or dated you know eventually you will see them in a club somewhere, it's inevitable, especially for me.
Some of you know this better than others and some you may even have first hand experience with this (as many of my ex-dates are readers, whaddup y'all?) but before my current relationship I used to be, well, a whore, a nasty top, a say-anything-to-get-in-some-ass-dick-slinging-smooth-talking-whore. My dick has been in more dudes mouths than a thermometer and I've been in more rectums than well... a rectal thermometer (all safe sex of course). A few months ago I sat down and tried to make a list of all the people I have had just intercourse with... I gave up. Needless to say, I can't go to a club, a ball, or anywhere below 14th Street, scratch that, 23rd Street without seeing someone I've had a tryst with and last night was no exception.
I arrived at Mars 2112 at aound 1:30A and took my perch at the front with my boo where they collect the money, tickets, etc. From there I saw everyone as they walked in and out. Faces, eyes, lips that had been wrapped around my dick before, deep throating it ravenously, looks that say remember the night that we... and how it felt when I... and what I did when you... my dick jumped at the memories. On the dancefloor could-be conquests giving me lustful glances with while the music blared from the speakers.
Now back in the day this would have been my cue to get phone numbers and send text messages and I definitely would've had something popping off by the time I started typing this blog post. But now that I'm in a relationship I look at things a little differently. While temptation is ever present, the random hook-up thing is just not as appealing as it used to be. Maybe it's because at this point I've had sex in possible way one could have it. So now I look at it like okay, I can fuck you, and then what... ya know? I'm learning how to think before I act in my old age.
Even in my whore days as nice as it was to be getting some on the regular I really wasn't so much into the variety aspect. If there were someone then that I could have just been with and wanted to be with me all at the same time I could've settled down a little earlier. I remember meeting dudes, fucking the shit out of them, oohs, ahhhs, cum everywhere and then they never call back, or maybe they do call back, only when they want some more dick. Being a top I never understood, how are you gonna meet a dude, let him fuck you, and then that's it? That seems crazy to me but how could I question a bottom for doing it. I'm a top and I sure as hell did it so it would be wrong for me to hold up a double standard.
In my current relationship, my boo (who's no alto in a castrati choir either) like me came into this thing as a top so we are both learning to compromise (that's a whole 'nother series of blog postings) and our relationship is open, no, not in that way, I'm talking about communication, people. It's good to be able to love someone and not feel trapped. We're honest with eachother, we check out dudes together, we tell each other everything, I guess, but whatever he may not be telling me I don't wanna know anyway, as long as he keeps respecting me. We were friends first and that's always important and he means so much to me so I wouldn't wanna do anything to mess that up.
So in the war for independence, my brain, the bigger head, after years of being under the tyrannical rule of the mighty penis (as he likes to be addressed in third person) has finally seceded and is a fully functioning independent republic.
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Song Of The Day:
"Fourth Of July"
by Mariah Carey
from the album "Butterfly"
My favorite Mariah song EVER!
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