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Sorry for this post being so short but I had to sneak it in between the sixty million things I have to do today.
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Play this as you read:
"Should Have Known"
by Robyn
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I saw the show "Cat On a Hot Tin Roof" on Broadway Wednesday night. I won't give the story away for those who are unfamiliar but seeing the pain that Anika Noni Rose's and Phylicia Rashad's character's were in, loving men who did not love them back, really resonated with me. They lived their lives in a constant state of insecurity and uncomfort, like cats on hot tin roofs. All throughout the play I felt as though they were speaking right to me and I knew what had to be done.
So, yup, it's over. I broke up with Pubby again for the very last time this morning. I've just come to finally realize that no matter how much I did, no matter how much I gave that he's never gonna change. It wasn't an easy decision to make but it as the best one for me. And unlike the previous times I broke with him I don't have anything bad to say about him, because this time it's not about him and how he did me wrong, it's about me and how I've decided to finally do me right. It's not even his fault. I'm the only one with the power to have allowed myself to get that way so it was up to me to free myself. Right now I'm really pissed with myself for repeatedly being so stupid. In the words of Robyn, I shoulda seen this coming, "I shoulda fuckin' known."
There's a lot more I could and probably should have said but that's not freedom. You don't see prisoners released from jail going back and trying to settle scores with the warden and their fellow inmates, they're too busy being free for that. In the words of Beyonce "...what was misunderstood, it's all good, it's all good." There truly is no feeling like being free, when your mind is truly made up and your heart is truly in the right place. No hard feelings, just better thinking from now on.
So if you wanna leave a comment, leave a comment just don't send me no condolences and shit, because I'm okay. And whatever's not okay will all be okay in a little bit of time.
As far as the book is concerned, y'all know I'm currently writing my first book. I had dinner yesterday with James Earl Hardy (author of the black gay fiction classic "B-Boy Blues"). I picked his brain about how to get started as far as the publishing end of the whole book thing is concerned. He's a really cool guy and I learned a lot from him. I'm really honored that he would even take the time to dine with little ol' me, especially with his book being turned into a movie and all now. Thanks James.
Just landed on my own two feet,
Shoulda fuckin' known,
-Adam
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Playing In the Background...
"Free"
by Destiny's Child
from the album "Destiny Fulfilled"
and
"Better In Time"
by Leona Lewis
from the album "Spirit"
and
"Should Have Known"
by Robyn
from the album "Robyn"
and
"Be Mine!"
by Robyn
from the album "Robyn"
and
"Mad"
by Vivian Green
from the album "Vivian"
and
"I'm Done"
by Tweet
from the album "It's Me Again"
and
"Single Again"
by Trina
from the album "Still Da Baddest"
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